August 31st, 2016

​Day 10  the finale. 
Today the prompt is: something about me I hope you do and don't notice. 
I kinda like this one. I used to hope people noticed so many things about me that if I had tried to write this 20 years ago....it would be a freaking novella of stupidity. Now days though.... I hope people notice my kindness. That's  about it. I have other positive traits, surely, but I honestly might not care if you notice them.  I don't know when this changed for me or why. Yoga may have helped. Friendships (and non-friendships) definitely helped.Time helped. Age helped!  My kids helped.    I'm somewhat artistic. I'm well-read. I know a lot about perennial plants. I love my children like no other. I try to be reliable and responsible (sorta). But I really don't mind if you don't notice those things. Awhile back I thought about what the best human traits were and besides humor and loyalty.... Kindness was the one thing I felt was key. It's so easy to be kind. AND it's so fuckin hard to be kind. So I hope you notice that I try hard to be kind. 
What I hope you don't notice. Longer list unfortunately. I hope you don't notice that I over indulge. I hope you don't notice I may drink too often. That I live in The Ghetto. (this is what we have christened our 100 year old house...which could be a cool house IF we had money to fix/spruce it up. (You guys won't notice cuz you never come here (with the exception of my sister:) but in life I often hope people don't see it like I see it. I hope people don't notice that I am formally uneducated. I wish I had gone to college...but I did not.  I hope you don't notice I can't write! ;)
I hope people don't notice that I am a bit insecure. That I don't EVER have a complete (cool) outfit... Nothing to wear to the ----. Fill in the blank, cuz it happens to me a lot. That I don't give great xmas presents. That I miss my kids more than is probably reasonable. That I am 30 lbs overweight these days, despite a quite physical job AND yoga. (wtf)!!   I hope you don't notice how much I wish strangers 'liked' my writing in this group. (really embarrassed about that one). and on and on and on.   But I don't need to list any more things, since it is day 10 and no one will remember anything in a month anyway. hah! 
Ridiculous, isn't it? Wishing people wouldn't notice things about us? We are who we are.  
I loved this 10 day go-round. I loved that friends of mine participated!! I love that I got to read fabulous essays, cuz you know I love reading! The 30 day one was harder. But this one felt right.  Ah, life. So magnificent and so insignificant. I hope you notice that I would love to 'meet' you all again in the next writing challenge!   Adios,    x #500wordsaday